Me

with a slow-sluggish mind like this,

trying so hard yet cannot even understand a relatively simple explanation

sometimes i wonder how i could be a so-called bright student some 15-20yrs ago

guess i have only myself to be blame

years ago i was full of determination, the will to succeed

now only left with isolation, the belief that everything i do will fail

years ago i was full of confidence (at least on paper)

now inferiority engulf me

seems like everybody else is better than me

the search for the missing spark continues.